Thunder fucking woke me up. Rain was piurin on meh from the open window. Fuckin hot too. During a dream bout p. Dint kno wut it wuzbour tho

Trying to figure out who patrick has a crush on....

Took a shower. One of the cuts is bleeding again

My mind is blank......

Akward awkward.... I never know how to spell it.....Ironic isn't it. I<3irony

A normal conversation. Thank you

The song i sang to nick in sixth grade is on..... :'(

I'm not the type to let anyone who has ever been in my life go.... Everyone one leaves their own significant mark on my heart, i cannot erase these marks

Feeling better

Getting the facts on patrick oconner. He said his best date was with me. I played it kwl and dint respond, just asked a new question

Wow.... Patrick is actually being nice, it's turned into a real conversation. Im starving but when i look for something to eat, i have no desire to eat it

Can fit a paper clip into one cut and it stays put

Washing the wounds... I thought they stopped bleeding, turns out they weren't evn close

10 new cuts on my body to match the almost 30 scars and the name carved in my leg

I dont want to wipe the blood away. hurting myself shows me how much i've been hurt.My 1love started me with cutting,being raped 2 is making it more dangerous.

It's surreal i could even do this but it feels like i have to...

Blood on my finger, blood on my hips, blood escaping me

Y life. It hurts. I've never cut myself to when it hurts. I'm not crying, it's like my blood is taking the place of my tears.

Deepest cut i've ever made. It's dripping from my hip all the way down my legs.... If it were wider it would need stitches. I've never been this bad before in m

Need to get something sharper

New scars to show the world. I forgot how good it felt to watch my own blood fall from fresh slices in my skin....

He says he doesn't care,that i treat him only as a friend.I don't want to fall in love with him.But this all feels like heartbreak.He is not my Heaven on Earth.

I like this guy....but it feels like heartbreak...he says bye..i don't want to stop talking to him yet...he texts me the next day...he does not excape my mind.

FWD: uh alot and then alot about other guys who arent me and talking about me and saying you dont care about that shit from patrick....

He says my fb wall kills him. I asked what itt said about him

FWD: i wanna talk to you in school i just never see you and i want to like you again but its complicated yoyve done alot to not make me like you. from patrick

My life sux. My sisters and their friends r ovr swimming. I have no one to swim with. Not fair. It's hot, i'm depressed, i'm lonely, and all i wana do is cut :/

Maybe this time when he says bye, he'll mean it... I kinda dnt wnt him to tho.... If that makes any sense at all

pix (:

tUHbitha

Pat oconner just wont give up on me