love me because i love you
kiss me because i want you to
be with me because i'm lonely
sit down because i can sit on your lap
hold me close because i'm cold
make love to me because i trust you
stay with me because i'll stay with you
write to me because not too far
watch me because i look good
skate with me because it's fun
share your secrets because i want to hear them
let me see you because i miss you
talk to me because i love hearing your voice
write me a song because i love music
compliment me because i deserve one
be with me because i'm lonely
kiss me because i want you to
love me because i love you
Monday, May 31, 2010
iloveyou
I LOVE YOU
DON'T LET ME FALL
KISS ME
GIVE ME BUTTERFLIES
HOLD ME LOVEINGLY
SHOW ME TO THE WORLD
DON'T PULL AWAY
BE BRAVE
TOUCH ME GENTLY
LOVE BECASUSE IT MATTERS
BE WITH ME
TAKE YOUR TIME
WAVE AND COME OVER
DON'T BE AFRAID
I'M YOUR PRIZE
HONOR ME
BE A HOPELESS ROMANTIC
LET'S MAKE THIS LAST
TRY ME
LOVE ME
BECAUSE
I LOVE YOU
DON'T LET ME FALL
KISS ME
GIVE ME BUTTERFLIES
HOLD ME LOVEINGLY
SHOW ME TO THE WORLD
DON'T PULL AWAY
BE BRAVE
TOUCH ME GENTLY
LOVE BECASUSE IT MATTERS
BE WITH ME
TAKE YOUR TIME
WAVE AND COME OVER
DON'T BE AFRAID
I'M YOUR PRIZE
HONOR ME
BE A HOPELESS ROMANTIC
LET'S MAKE THIS LAST
TRY ME
LOVE ME
BECAUSE
I LOVE YOU
Sunday, May 30, 2010
ANNOYANCE OF THE DAY:PICTURES! uk what kind im tlkng about.uk i send thm whn u dnt evn ask so shut up+ud get thm fastr thn asking.(brandon uk wut im tlkng bout)
ode to blogging
a release of emotion
the thoughts no one ever thought were there
everything you wish to say outloud
but don't have the guts to say to the person
passion
a description to the thoughts indescribable
something people may see but do not understand
there is a passion in what we write
so write
and release
you could be a poet
someone angry
someone full of pain
or full of love
try and see
where your thoughts take you
blog it out buds
you may discover things about yourself that you could never tell were true of your self character
it may answer questions that you've tried to answer, but couldn't find the answer
be yourself
tell the honest truth
an online diary
or a way to advertize yourself
your true self
be you
be a blogger
the thoughts no one ever thought were there
everything you wish to say outloud
but don't have the guts to say to the person
passion
a description to the thoughts indescribable
something people may see but do not understand
there is a passion in what we write
so write
and release
you could be a poet
someone angry
someone full of pain
or full of love
try and see
where your thoughts take you
blog it out buds
you may discover things about yourself that you could never tell were true of your self character
it may answer questions that you've tried to answer, but couldn't find the answer
be yourself
tell the honest truth
an online diary
or a way to advertize yourself
your true self
be you
be a blogger
a song of self
hey hey hey baby
you know i'm the one
so don't even try to deny meee
you have all you want
i'll give you what you don't got
so come closer to me
and then we will see
everything you say
it pierces my heart a certain way
you scare me till i cry
you make me want to run and hide
but you always come back
and that makes me sigh
you have it made
you house all my pain
so try one thing with me baby
just take my hand
and sway with me
let the music play
and let us be
everything you say
it pierces my heart a certain way
you scare me till i cry
you make me want to run and hide
but you always come back
and that makes me sigh
try this with me
give it a chance
don't hide yourself
and keep it in your pants
try this with me
give it a chance
don't hide youself
and keep it in your pants
you have all you want
you get everything you deserve
so let me tell you something
do you want me cuz i want you
do you treat me like a girl
or like something from some other world
do you love the idea of falling for me
or do you want me to fall for you
do you have a clue
what to do with yourself
try this with me
give it a chance
don't hide yourself
and keep it in your pants
everything you say
pierces my heart a certain way
you scare me till i cry
you make me want to run and hide
but you always come back
and that makes me sigh
you know i'm the one
so don't even try to deny meee
you have all you want
i'll give you what you don't got
so come closer to me
and then we will see
everything you say
it pierces my heart a certain way
you scare me till i cry
you make me want to run and hide
but you always come back
and that makes me sigh
you have it made
you house all my pain
so try one thing with me baby
just take my hand
and sway with me
let the music play
and let us be
everything you say
it pierces my heart a certain way
you scare me till i cry
you make me want to run and hide
but you always come back
and that makes me sigh
try this with me
give it a chance
don't hide yourself
and keep it in your pants
try this with me
give it a chance
don't hide youself
and keep it in your pants
you have all you want
you get everything you deserve
so let me tell you something
do you want me cuz i want you
do you treat me like a girl
or like something from some other world
do you love the idea of falling for me
or do you want me to fall for you
do you have a clue
what to do with yourself
try this with me
give it a chance
don't hide yourself
and keep it in your pants
everything you say
pierces my heart a certain way
you scare me till i cry
you make me want to run and hide
but you always come back
and that makes me sigh
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Love Story
the first day of sixth grade i knew only a few people, the day was a blur and i had to go to an afterschool program because no one would be home with me.
i remember sitting down at the first table, second chair in the middle of the table in the front of the classroom, i had no idea what to do so i looked up at the door, a guy walked in. i had butterflies in my stomach, i got all melted inside... my whole body felt as if it were ice cream left out into the sun for hours. he was the one, and my body, mind, and heart knew it. he looked over, he smiled, i almost fainted. he was gorgeous with a diamond-dusted smile to match. his hair was a ash-brown and floppy and looked soft. he was short and his pants were low. he had great skin. he was a year older than me. him and i became friends instantly. we dated all through till he graduated.
before he graduated from middle school, him and i got into a huge fight. yea we broke up a few times over the years but i still got the tinglies even after the breakups. this break up and fight was different. my little sister, vica, was paying him to go out with me. and i found out through my friend because my friend had a crush on me and looked out for me. the guy did not deny to being payed a weekly allowance for dating me. it shattered my heart so much that i couldn't be in the same with him without the need to want to kill him. i fell out of love with him as fast as a 10 dollar bill could be slapped into his awaiting palm.
i was in 8th grade, i forgot all about what happened right before the summer vacation. i just was glad i was with friends and i could see them every day at school. 8th grade was definatley my best year at VCMS. but then i had the highschool orientation for RHS and guess who i saw.... yea him again. all the memories came flooding back that i had blocked out of my head for so long. i'm glad i looked good that day. i went on facebook that night and he messaged me. he was like "tanya, call me, we need to talk" so i called him and we talked. he said he loved me. it changed everything. this was may of last year.
so him and i started to go out on june 17 it was awesome. my first date was the last day of 8th grade. i went to his house, i remember it so well. i was in his room...we were watching a movie. i asked to move to the bed where it was more comfortable so we did. he kept kissing my head. he asked why i hadn't kissed him and i said i wasn't ready. he had to bring me home. i showed him my room and sat on the edge of my bed. he was about to leave. i said "wait, no kiss?" and he was like "seriously" i nodded. he walked over and kissed me. i felt like the world had left me. it was just me and him. the kiss was short. 2 seconds, and closed lips. that was my first kiss. he and i hung out almost everyday of the summer. i remember when he first fingered me...when we had midnight walks in henry park...he ate me out in a tree ( i hate it ) i remember having sex...i was so mad at him. we were fighting more than ever. he took my virginity. i took his. it should've been magical, but i wasn't feeling the magic. i asked him to stop...it was akward... we broke up the next day.sex was our closeur. we both knew it was the end for us. he accepted it fine, he was cheating on me for 2 weeks so he had a girl to rebound on.
i never realized i was in love with him till we broke up. i wrote songs, cryed, tried to find new guys, dreamt about him, destroyed everything he gave me except a sweatshirt he gave me on our first date, i still have it and wear it. i don't love him anymore. he always holds a place in my heart.
i don't believe in love anymore. i love the idea of falling into love where the guy loves you as much as you love him. you're his only one, he is yours. you kiss and always get tingles. you hug and never want to let go. you talk and text every moment you're able. they fill all the empty spaces in your brain and you fill theirs. they say "i love you" and they mean it. they let you go at your own pace and when you do have sex, it is magical. you want to be with this person your whole life and they want you their whole life also. they are the one, you are their one. love is so great that it is hard to believe. i experienced it once. nothing to say but pure bliss. i don't believe in it anymore but maybe i might.
love
tears
tanya
i remember sitting down at the first table, second chair in the middle of the table in the front of the classroom, i had no idea what to do so i looked up at the door, a guy walked in. i had butterflies in my stomach, i got all melted inside... my whole body felt as if it were ice cream left out into the sun for hours. he was the one, and my body, mind, and heart knew it. he looked over, he smiled, i almost fainted. he was gorgeous with a diamond-dusted smile to match. his hair was a ash-brown and floppy and looked soft. he was short and his pants were low. he had great skin. he was a year older than me. him and i became friends instantly. we dated all through till he graduated.
before he graduated from middle school, him and i got into a huge fight. yea we broke up a few times over the years but i still got the tinglies even after the breakups. this break up and fight was different. my little sister, vica, was paying him to go out with me. and i found out through my friend because my friend had a crush on me and looked out for me. the guy did not deny to being payed a weekly allowance for dating me. it shattered my heart so much that i couldn't be in the same with him without the need to want to kill him. i fell out of love with him as fast as a 10 dollar bill could be slapped into his awaiting palm.
i was in 8th grade, i forgot all about what happened right before the summer vacation. i just was glad i was with friends and i could see them every day at school. 8th grade was definatley my best year at VCMS. but then i had the highschool orientation for RHS and guess who i saw.... yea him again. all the memories came flooding back that i had blocked out of my head for so long. i'm glad i looked good that day. i went on facebook that night and he messaged me. he was like "tanya, call me, we need to talk" so i called him and we talked. he said he loved me. it changed everything. this was may of last year.
so him and i started to go out on june 17 it was awesome. my first date was the last day of 8th grade. i went to his house, i remember it so well. i was in his room...we were watching a movie. i asked to move to the bed where it was more comfortable so we did. he kept kissing my head. he asked why i hadn't kissed him and i said i wasn't ready. he had to bring me home. i showed him my room and sat on the edge of my bed. he was about to leave. i said "wait, no kiss?" and he was like "seriously" i nodded. he walked over and kissed me. i felt like the world had left me. it was just me and him. the kiss was short. 2 seconds, and closed lips. that was my first kiss. he and i hung out almost everyday of the summer. i remember when he first fingered me...when we had midnight walks in henry park...he ate me out in a tree ( i hate it ) i remember having sex...i was so mad at him. we were fighting more than ever. he took my virginity. i took his. it should've been magical, but i wasn't feeling the magic. i asked him to stop...it was akward... we broke up the next day.sex was our closeur. we both knew it was the end for us. he accepted it fine, he was cheating on me for 2 weeks so he had a girl to rebound on.
i never realized i was in love with him till we broke up. i wrote songs, cryed, tried to find new guys, dreamt about him, destroyed everything he gave me except a sweatshirt he gave me on our first date, i still have it and wear it. i don't love him anymore. he always holds a place in my heart.
i don't believe in love anymore. i love the idea of falling into love where the guy loves you as much as you love him. you're his only one, he is yours. you kiss and always get tingles. you hug and never want to let go. you talk and text every moment you're able. they fill all the empty spaces in your brain and you fill theirs. they say "i love you" and they mean it. they let you go at your own pace and when you do have sex, it is magical. you want to be with this person your whole life and they want you their whole life also. they are the one, you are their one. love is so great that it is hard to believe. i experienced it once. nothing to say but pure bliss. i don't believe in it anymore but maybe i might.
love
tears
tanya
what i call hell
does anyone understand? it's like no one is there for me. i'm here all alone practically drowning in my own tears. i've lost so many people in my life for such stupid things. i never provoke people, i stand up for myself. look what happens; i lose someone i wanted a future with. he doesn't tell people about me. all he does is want. wants things from me. he says he is saving himself for marriage...bullshit. everytime he says goodbye and i say it back, i know he will text back the next day, he likes me, i know it. he says he does. why can't he pray on some other moron, not me. i don't like being treated this way, i never asked for it. i cry as if someone has died...and maybe...maybe a part of me is dieing... so much of me is lost to my first love whom i'll always remember but want to forget about. he was my first for everything...the one guy i trusted with my life....my everything...we fought....but in the fights you could just see we loved each other the same way. don't get me wrong, i'm over him, beyond done but...i still like to think about the good times him and i shared. so all i'm asking is....someone....anyone who actually cares about a girl and doesn't treat her as a sexual object... find me... and treat me like the person you know i am.
thank you...
love
and plenty of tears
tatyana
thank you...
love
and plenty of tears
tatyana
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
wich sister is your fav...and why
don't really have a fave. i love both of them. vica is more fun to hang out, but we get each other pissed. kristina is really immature and provokes me, definately, but she is also hysterical. i can't choose one over the other. they the only birth family i got in america, i can't loose either one of them :') <3
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
diary
totally obsessing over the song diary by tino coury (:: he is sooo good lol. i've been so depressed lately. going to RAR with dan<3 tomorrow. pretty happy bout that. haven't seen him in forever. i owe him a couple of kisses haha. idk y he keeps coming back to meh though...i've always been sucha bitch to the guy...i feel bad but you know... that's how love is... he say's he wants to marry me. aww (::
tUHbitha
tUHbitha
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
long
haven't been on here for a while. today is the second day i have stayed home because i've been throwing up....so nersty...
got some of my bio final done i had to do the male/ female reporductive systems and the urinary/ excretory functions...yep i love my lab teacher...not i call him mr. mcmarshmallow because he is so huge and always wears a white shirt that makes him look like a marshmallow. it's pretty funny. he is probably the stupidest man ever. he taught us the same chapter 8 times already it's pretty fucked up.
gawd on myyearbook two best friend are fighting over me and it's flattering but annnoying at the same time. i like aaron first but he is telling me i should go out with his bestie brandon because supposedly i like brandon more than aaron. it's stupid. brandon is sweet but i'm getting a vibe from him that all he wants is a fuck and i'm sooo not giving it to him. aaron doesn't talk much but i like him because he is real and we had really extensive phone conversations where we actually talked instead of just akward silences. don't get me wrong, i don't even want a boyfriend any time soon, but if i were to pick betweent the two it would probably be aaron. also i found out i knew someone on MYB. he is was in my elementary/ middle school so i messaged him and asked if he remembered me and he said yea. so he asked me to go on a date with him and i said yes and gave him my number but he hasn't texted/called/ or even messaged me back yet which is weird....
i just made a formspring.me.... i have a twitter....a facebook.....and myyearbook
. formspring.me: tanya buckley
. twitter: tUHbitha
. facebook: tanya buckley (with the smiley face next to it)
. myyearbook: tUHbitha berkley
so yea i finally got my cell back but no one is texting me. i don't really care but yea it's still nice to have someone think about you that's all....
my life is down the tubes....i'm so depressed and lonely all the time......
got some of my bio final done i had to do the male/ female reporductive systems and the urinary/ excretory functions...yep i love my lab teacher...not i call him mr. mcmarshmallow because he is so huge and always wears a white shirt that makes him look like a marshmallow. it's pretty funny. he is probably the stupidest man ever. he taught us the same chapter 8 times already it's pretty fucked up.
gawd on myyearbook two best friend are fighting over me and it's flattering but annnoying at the same time. i like aaron first but he is telling me i should go out with his bestie brandon because supposedly i like brandon more than aaron. it's stupid. brandon is sweet but i'm getting a vibe from him that all he wants is a fuck and i'm sooo not giving it to him. aaron doesn't talk much but i like him because he is real and we had really extensive phone conversations where we actually talked instead of just akward silences. don't get me wrong, i don't even want a boyfriend any time soon, but if i were to pick betweent the two it would probably be aaron. also i found out i knew someone on MYB. he is was in my elementary/ middle school so i messaged him and asked if he remembered me and he said yea. so he asked me to go on a date with him and i said yes and gave him my number but he hasn't texted/called/ or even messaged me back yet which is weird....
i just made a formspring.me.... i have a twitter....a facebook.....and myyearbook
. formspring.me: tanya buckley
. twitter: tUHbitha
. facebook: tanya buckley (with the smiley face next to it)
. myyearbook: tUHbitha berkley
so yea i finally got my cell back but no one is texting me. i don't really care but yea it's still nice to have someone think about you that's all....
my life is down the tubes....i'm so depressed and lonely all the time......
Monday, May 3, 2010
haha just made a twitter. crazy shiz, u cant do shit on that website except update. its pretty goofy. erg its soooo hot i hate it. i totally proved the theory wrong about being on a lake and on top of a mountain that it is cooler than everywhere else, well guess what! its not!!!! argggg! sooo peeved off that i havta sleep in heat like this.... my leg itches haha. a spider crawled down my shirt the other day and it freaked me out lol and i spilled a coolatta down my bra aussi, thats definately a weird way of cooling off lmao :)
tUHbitha
tUHbitha
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