Sunday, August 15, 2010






stuff i bought today (eyeliner et lipgloss)
it's good to bitch sometimes
Kristina is absolutely the most selfish person that i've been around.
A car drove by and it was the exact same color as my eyeshadow (powder blue)
Going shopping
don't blame me for thinking gay people are beautiful

110 questions

110 About You Questions Survey from Quizopolis.com




So what's your name? - tatyana olegovna

How old are you? - 15

You took this survey because? - i\'m super bored

What time is it right now? - 1:38p

What is the closest thing to you that's blue? - my cell phone

Do you like to travel? - yes, love it

If so, where have you traveled? - practically every state in the contiguous US twice, ireland, russia, UK, canada

What is your favorite website? - playlist.com; my blog; picnik; tumblr

What color is your room? - bright pink walls, bright green ceiling with huge orange and pink polka dots then i have ginormous black poster boards on 2 of my walls

Are you single, taken, complicated? - single, yay

Do you like to play video games? - not really

What is your favorite sport? - volley ball

Do you still sleep with stuffed animals? - yea...

What is your favorite food? - chinese dumplings with duck sauce

Can you say your ABC's backwards? - yea if i think about it

What are your two favorite colors? - gray and dark purple

Have you ever been in love? - yes...

How many gf/bf have you had so far? - 40+ bfs, 1 unofficial gf

Have you ever done anything illegal? What was it? - yes. uhm, had sex with someone that\'s older than me more than once

What was the most embarrassing thing you have ever done? - uhm no idea

Do you feel guilty about anything? - yes.

What is the closest thing to you that's round? - the glass ball that kris got my mom for christmas, it\'s got a dark purple flower in it, and it\'s absolutely gorgeous

Could you go on a day without eating? - yes, i have

Were were you born? - smolensk, russia

Do you feel you are attractive? - sometimes

Ever thought about getting married someday? - no

How about having children? - no

What is your favorite season? Why? - summer, no school, less drama

Do you get along with your parents? - not at all

How many siblings do you have? - 2

What is your favorite animal? - giraffe

Have you ever done something you regret? - duh, haven\'t we all?

Do you believe in yourself? - depends

Are you shy or outgoing? - both

Who has slept in your bed besides you? - vica, kristina, christa, sarah, nick, chase

What do you like to do on the weekends? - ron a roll, mall, chill

Do you like your name? - it fits so yes

If not, what would you like it to be instead? - i love the name odette but it doesn\'t match, or anastasia, or i\'ll have people start calling me tatyana again, it\'s more elegant, and i like that

If you won $500,000. What is the first 3 things you would do with it? - plastic surgery

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? - college?

Who was the last person to call you? - julia smith

What does the 43rd text in your inbox say? - i\'d tell you, but i recently just erased my inbox

Who do you hang out with the most? - julia or chad

Are you looking forward to anything special in the next month? - not so much

What type of day are you having? - awful

What is the reason? - depression

If you were a crayon, what color would you be? - the multi colored one

What was the last thing you ate? - croissant from DD

Do you have any pets? - nope, he died

Have you ever been in a long distance relationship? - kind of

What was your longest relationship? - 3 years, on and off, 4 months consecutive

Would you forgive someone who cheated on you? - yes, bc i\'m a loser

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - uhm i think i kissed julia last so yes omj

What if you saw the person you liked/loved kissing someone else? - she can have her freedom, it hurts but as long as she\'s happy and still kisses me, i\'m okay with it

What color is your hair? - hard to explain unless you saw it in person, it\'s weird in pix

What do you fear the most? - dieing alone and unloved, being forgotten too soon

What size shoe do you wear? - 7 1/2

Where is your favorite place to shop? - the mall

Do you like puzzles? - yes (:

FINISH THE SENTENCE - with an orgasm

Right now I want... - to cut myself

I can't live without... - someone

I'm happy when... - i\'m with someone that likes me back

I wish I was in... - bed

I love it when... - someone i like kisses me or maybe just a hug

Today I... - hate my life

Tomorrow I'm... - probably not busy

I'm sad when... - i\'m alone

My mom thinks I'm... - irresponsible, stupid, loud, a lesbian

My dad thinks I'm... - confident, loud, over-bearing, an emotional wreck

Do you like small or large purses? - large

How old were you when you had your 1st kiss? - 3

Do you regret it? - no i was 3

Do you miss anyone right now? - julia

If you could visit a country, which one would it be? - russia

What were you doing at midnight last night? - reading and texting and listening to the music with the lights on and the door closed

Do you recycle? - nope

Do you wear make-up or are you a natural beauty? - both, depending on how i feel

Have you ever been in a fight? - yes

If so, how many? - too many to count

Where is your phone? - on the desktop directly in front of me, don\'t steal it now that you know where it is though

What kind of phone do you have? - verizon blitz in blue

Can you sing? - i don\'t think so but others do

How about dancing? - i\'m a good dancer

Where are you from? - my mother\'s womb d:

Are you lazy or always on the go? - both

Do you snore or know someone who snores? - no and yes

What is your favorite brand in clothing? - VS Pink

What time do you wake up everyday? - normally 7 or 8 if i\'m depressed 9, 10, or 11 even

Did you graduate? - yea, elementary school and middle school

You plan on going to college? - yes that shit is hysterical!!!

What makes you nervous? - everything, but i don\'t show it

Do you have a job? Where? - nope

Are you having fun with this survey? - fun??

Why do you feel this way? - what way?

Do you play video games? - yes that shit is hysterical!!!

What is one of your hobbies? - writing

Have you ever been to Las Vegas? - yes that shit is hysterical!!!

Can you do the splits? - huh?

Who is your favorite artist? - britney spears

Do you have a lot of friends? - yes i\'m quite popular

Where is your parents right now? - downstairs or outside

Would you go back 2 years or go ahead to 2 weeks? - go back two years

Have you ever been called a slut? - yes, so much

Do you like chocolate? - not really

What's your favorite restaurant? Why? - friendly\'s uhm obv reasons

What is your favorite memory? - i can\'t say

What are your 3 best skills? - writing, pretending, lieing (pretty much bad skills minus the first one)

Are you ready for this survey to be over? - idrc

Are you happy with life? - sometimes

Did you like this survey? Why or why not? - yea sure



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I am 93% emo





Emo Quiz Thinger



[x] I like skinny jeans.

[x] Music is life.

[x] I write/wrote poetry/song lyrics.

[x] My hair covers part of my face.

[ ] I wear band shirts.

[x] I know who Jeffree Star is.

[x] I wear/wore converse

[ ] I wear/wore vans.

[x] I wear/wore eyeliner.

[x] I have/had/want my lip pierced.

[ ] I listen to The Used.



Total = 8



[ ] I’m in a band

[x] My screen name had/has an x in it

[x] I like/liked My Chemical Romance.

[x] I also like/liked Green Day.

[x] I know what mosh means.

[x] I sit in corners often.

[ ] I hate MTV.

[x] I take pictures of myself a lot, especially ones where you can’t see my whole face.



Total so far = 14




[x] I am lost without a cdplayer/my iPod/mp3

[x] I have/had thick rimmed glasses.

[x] I have no issues with bi/gay people.

[x] I hate the president.

[ ] I have/had a mohawk.

[x] I’ve worn black nail polish.

[x] I like/have liked slipknot.

[x] I hate who I live with.

[x] Black is a good color.



Total = 22





[x] Right now I am listening to music.

[ ] I know what hxc means.

[ ] I know what sxc means.

[x] facebook = love

[x] Hot Topic doesn’t scare me.

[x] I wear/wore studded belts.

[ ] I Like Hawthorne Heights

[x] I have worn tight jeans.

[x] I have/want/wanted to dyed/dye my hair black.

[x] I’m sensitive.

[x] I write/draw on myself.

[x] I’ve been called emo before



Total so far = 31
i tried cutting the other day but my scissors were too dull and i had lost my razors... i really need to cut right now, it's the only thing in life that feels sane (ironic, huh?)

musings

yea so i stayed up all night last night because i couldn't get myself to fall asleep. thank thy Lord that my phone had service on the pillow next to me or i would've been scared out of my brains last night without knowing someone was there for me. i think i stayed up because of the whole arguement and shit that went on with john. he claims he wasn't lieing, but seriously, isn't withholding the truth the same thing as lieing.... YES!!!!  so yea, i had him look up the guy i like on fb and he got super jealous and pissed with me. the guy i like is fucking gorgeous, but him and i can't do anything too public because of the practically 5 year age gap (he had just turned 20 a few months ago) and i guess john is sick of listening to me ramble on about this guy. so yea, as i had always though, john is IN LOVE WITH ME and he didn't tell me, i ask him like a billion times every day if he is and he never said so. faggot. john, chad, and justin kept me company. justin told me he was going to bed and that was around 1oclock, chad fell asleep on me around 230 and john fell asleep in the time when i started to text chad around 1. o wait, chad fell asleep around 330 i think. john was pretty faithful though, he stayed up until i finally conked out at 530 this morn'



church was a drag, my had to wake me up around 915 and say that we were leaving in 15 minutes, but i did end up doing my makeup and hair super well in the 5 minutes it took me to get ready. i felt clausterphobic in church, though. my parents decided to sit in the middle (most crowded) area of the pews and there were people all around us. then some australian priest (that says he is 77 but i would've never guessed over 60) made a huge monologue that lasted 45 minutes, 15 minutes into mass. mass is about an hour long on average, and he was only technically halfway through mass.... so mass was 30 minutes over.... there were two really pretty (maybe 17 or 16 year old) girls sitting in front of my family and they kept looking at me like i was some kind of disease or something because i decided to wear purple-distressed-skinny jeans, a huge, knee-long gray sweatshirt, and my french tshirt with the gray stripes while they were both wearing pretty white 3/4 length sleeved cardigans over really gorgeous dresses. they had perfect hair and teeth and didn't even need makeup. i was so jealous. then a few rows up; there was this couple, some asian women with her 4 top/front teeth sticking way out and some short beefy blond guy she was with kept whispering. they were so intimate, it didn't even seem like they were in church, more like on a movie date of somesort. but WHATEVS...



after church we went to dunkin' donuts and i got two (plain) croissants and a (small) coffee coolatta with whipped cream. i guess that's all i have to say



today is going to be a boring day, my parents won't let me hang out with julia and i don't want to go to ron a roll alone because vica (again, no surprise) ditched me even after she promised (i should've known though, she always breaks her promises) that she'd come with me....

i'm still sort of upset with john.... 

chad is cool and says he has a crush on me again

alastair almost pissed his pants on the bizzarro roller coaster at six flags

julia says she still likes me and wants to hang out soon

kristina is trying to flirt with a 17 year old that doesn't like her back

vica ditched me for kaitlyn, whom she hung out with for a week straight (sleepovers and all)

i'm a lonely bitch with no one to talk to

DD :D