Bobby gawlick is sooo entertaining haha it's like 12:30am and i'm laughing

I cannot control myself around my 20 year old he just makes me so damn horny haha i so wana fuck him orgasm whenev i thnk bout him

I WISH I WUZ 18

I remember on my birthday that i got 3.5pages on my wall of HAPPYBDAYTANYA! & i luv u & ur awsm.i wish i could feel tht kinda luv & popularity evryday

..... So confused.... My dad thought i was lieing when i wuz telling the truth, i want to go to the mall tomoro and ron a roll friday & lauren's family hates me

Chillin' at a random pizza place, it's fun ig kinda shitty.... Smells like an old folk's home

There are alot of hot guys in downtown manchester connecticut haha (: jus saying o and i'm about to piss my pants laughing cuz vica and i are so damn funny

Taking a walk in downtown manchester with this fabulous gelati!

The dude in rita's looks just like the guy from 3oh!3 lol

Yay going to rita's again yay!!!

Yay going to rita's again yay!!!

cell phone

my cell phone is all out of juice...

my mom saw me randomly burst into tears today and she had this look of concern on her face... but she didn't do anything. if she asked what was wrong... i wouldn't know what to tell her:
"my husband divorced me because i don't like commitment in the summer"
"i'm talking to a 23 year old that doesn't know that i'm faking every emotion of affection towards him and i just like  him as a friend and he is weird and creepy, and not to mention kind of old and not my type"
"i miss my old boyfriend and wish we were together like last summer"
"i want my other ex back even though he is a lying cheating faggot but he was great at everything and made me happy"
"i'm depressed and can't be happy without making new scars for my body to hold"

none of those would have worked.... without an explenation that i wouldn't have wanted to give. o dinner time. be back later...

love and tears, tanya

something to lighten my spirits [:

mmm well i guess it just one of 'em days huh?

dan

everytime he talks to me, i think it's going to be different, but in the back of my head i know it's never going to be the way i want it to be.

he said he wanted to be single this summer and you know have a fling with me at camp, i agreed because well that's how i am, i hate relationships, they never work, there's always jealousy and anxiousness and i can't deal with that shit. i hate summer relationships, i just want to flirt and have fun, a romance would be cool. all of a sudden, dan wants a relationship and he divorces me and is like " you want a boy toy but i want a relationship, i need a girlfriend tanya, i can't function without one" so yea...that's how dan and my story always ends. it sucks, i'm never going to get over him, i've always liked him. he's just so cute and he's sweet and wow now he's hot so yea... and woot (sarcasmic woot that is) now i have 4 fucking weeks of camp with him where he is either single and ignoring me or has a girlfriend and can't talk to me... it never works in the end... him and i are just not meant to be i guess, which really sucks. when i tell him i love him, i mean it. i really do love the kid...  o wait sorry he hates being called a kid, not that he even reads this... i love the man, i can't even smile... dan if you do read this... i mean it, all of it, i love you, i wish there was some way we could work out but there's not... i wish we were still married because i don't know what to do with our 18 kids... that was a failed attempt at a joke... guess i'm trying to raise my spirits. i can't be friends with dan without feeling the attraction and seeing him flirt at camp is going to be a serious downer on my 4 weeks of being there because he won't be flirting with me... i'll live through it i guess. maybe some harmless flirting... love you dan juan martinez, always will always have

love and tears, tanya

I'm sitting in my boat in the middle of a cornfield. Serene

pic.

that wuz my actual eye color, i just boosted it to make them brighter (:

My dad is a fucking faggot, he's making fun of what i want to do as a job ,his job is stupid,all he does is paint houses.Who gives a shit.Thank God he's leaving

My mom breathes louder than the printer makes noise... Ewww... I seriously just want to barf when i'm around her

Wooooowww this family is so beyond fucked up...She takes my stuff all the time and i try doing something nice and i get fucking screamed at wtf?! I hate them>.<

Wake up here i go it's another day i swear sometimes, i don't know which ways up which ways down