Saturday, June 12, 2010

surprise

i love you
Let me be...Let me sleep...Laying here thinking about you...My dreams hold your face...i know we can't be together...I wish it were allowed.u and i r impossible
The quiet. It surrounds me. It reminds me i'm alone. Clouded by my thoughts.My head hurts.I can't keep myself from thinking about you.Why did you enter my life?
Sometimes u say something just to make someone happy, to say it back so there is no emptiness on their side. u don't mean what u say and i don't mean it either.
Love:when u heart beats fast when u see him, u kiss and u actually feel sparks, they're the only on ur mind, they're the only one u want
So hey patrick is officially cute haha like personality wise
If you just heard a loud crack; that's my heart breaking
I HATE YOU MOM AND DAD U RUIN MY LIFE
Someone at the browbar in macy's asked me where i get my eyebrows done. I told her no where because my eyebrows are natural, i don't pluck,wax, or thread them.

list

  • my smiles are all fake
  • a mask i use when we go along to play
  • the pain in my stomach is real
  • caused by what you did, it's a huge deal
  • you've split me in half starting with my heart
  • sliced me so fucking hard that nothing can put me back
  • i can't think about you without wanting to barf
  • i can't eat or sleep, you're not my heaven on earth
  • want to watch my blood drip to the floor?
  • what the Hell am i waiting for?
  • i've become so numb
  • they're are many more to come

bleeding on the floor

you're fucking killing me inside to out

i've got scares to prove it so don't even doubt

you think i'm happy but you're so wrong

listen to what i say through this song

once upon a time

a while ago

there was a little girl who lived alone

she used to laugh, she used to play

but that all changed with the days

she's growing up but she's sad, all she ever does is cry

look at her and you'll see it's a new girl completely

(chorus)

so open your eyes 'cause it's a brand new day

open your eyes let's laugh and play

but back inside you'll see that is nothing but her

bleeding on the floor

covered like a cloak of darkness

she stays there untill the razor will erase it

she becomes so tired that she can't stand up

she lays down and just drops

(chorus)

try to open your eyes, it's a brand new day

come on! open your eyes, let's laugh and play

but  back inside you'll see nothing but her

laying and bleeding on the floor

dream (exist)

do you ever feel like it's all a dream?

that you don't exist?

that the person you love will stop thinking of you?

then you'll disappear and no one will remember you?

well, that's how i think.

i think my life is a never-ending dream

a nightmare at times

that my life is all made up

but, it's not.

this is the real deal

no turning back

you've got to be careful

make the right decision

everyone makes mistakes

just be you

don't change yourself

perfect doesn't exist

it's just a word for the insecure to thrive on

we're all a little messed up

but what can you do?

don't make a new you

be the person you are

be known through a dream

but, you do exist

gone

i'm not here

never was

i'm just a figment of your imagination

got to say

what i got to say

i'm only here

because of you babe

i don't want to be right here anymore

just disappear through the door
don't say bye

don't wave

it'll make me hurt more babe

leave me be

let me cry

just trying to hide

by myself

all alone
with my thoughts that acts as ghosts

le me scream inside my mind

not a sound uttered from my lips

just like a whispered kiss

my thoughts hold me together but i don't want to remember
The guys that work at pricechopper are all gorgeous (haha) hahaha
Wow stride shift gum ACTUALLY changes flavors! it's the coolest thing ever hahahaha!
Derek<3me wooot haha i love staring at ppl in random cars. Wooowww i'm a cool kid.O and patrick dislikes me & honestly i don't have the energy to care about it.
Got two new bathing suits now looking for a new purse. I seriously love macy's lmao
Sometimes you just have to lie
"what about us" "there is no 'us'" "ever?"
Pat says idc about him wow ironic much cuz that statement is pretty much reversed. He doesn't give a shit about me
The way these people treat me is the way u call: shitty
O wait...I'm going to Hell
I wish life were simple and if u didn't wana live all u could say is "no" and God could remove u from the planet with no pain involved
Omj! Text from derek haha remember when i flashed you derek haha funnnny!
If i culd b anywhr right now....i wish i was back to the nite whr i snuck u ovr.did u feel it whn we kissd?i culd feel ur heartbeat it wuz as fast as mine.
I rmbr he always used to pull away during a kiss, i never did.Now it's me that always pulls away, a guy never pulls away when he kisses me.People say i'm great.
I SOOOO need to be single for camp lol (:: i stole this from you dan ;) <3
Just cuz i sent the damn pic doesn't mean i want to be alone with you
I think i have a great sense of humor, even when i'm crying i am still funny and able o make people smile whem i just wana die inside
Man i seriously wanted to go to ronaroll cuz he wuz gonna b there but i have no one to go with :(
Wow she unbelievably gave me my phone back. I knew she got it that she is a bitch to me