tumblr confession

you told me you were in love with me, you even wrote me a letter that was 19 pages long on yellow paper in cursive, signed it in your own blood. you told me you'd never leave me. i've cried over you and hurt. i was with you even when you were with her. where have you gone? i know we shouldn't have done those things behind her back, but why would you say you needed me when you left so quick? i will love you forever. somewhere in my heart, you have made you mark that'll last a life-time.

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one thing that i can't keep off my mind is the fact that he said that he would never hate me, that he'd always be attached and annoying. he said he'd never lie, but isn't it lieing if he won't tell me what even happened. i know i didn't mean much, that's why i burned it bc it seemed like a lie and a burden to have those words with me and being able to look at them and interpret them the way my mind would. it sucks bc whenever i'm happy, i think about him and become extremely sad again. is it stupid that i remember all the songs that he reccomended me? he probably told other girls the same ones. smother me makes me cry bc it reminds me so much of nick. my heart never lets go of anyone, my mind never releases its memories into the atmosphere, but instead, i torture myself with them until i can't stand the pain anymore and hurt myself to rid the thoughts. he probably never thinks about me.

i'll just sum up the past few days in a few words.

thanksgiving was actually fun in RI

trains are fucking G

eric has a crush on me, and he was creepily video taping/snapping pix of me the whole day...

i miss someone

haha sent hastings a pic. he so wants me now xD

ignoring pat dick...

dyed my hair blue

6g hurt like fuckkkk, but they're sexyyy

black friday at the mall buying all the xmas prezzies for the fam was fun with vee

she called me fat, and i cryed for hours

kaitlyn got sooo pretty! been chilling with her for like, what, 3 days

cut my hair

dan wants to fuck vee and hates me or someshit

vee and i were sooo hyper and were calling all these boys at 7:30a-9:30a yesterday (:

lmao the mall...+boy....+sexy hats= lots of action for this girl (;

40 followers!!!

yesterday was the family's 12year anniversary together

sexy guy at chili's asked for my number (;

HARRY POTTER 7 WITH MARIA WIK (i brought vee along and met up with jake and zack)

tom felton ORGASM TO THE EXTREME

i burned it.

Day 16- Another picture of yourself

Day 16- Another picture of yourself


dyed the underneathe of my hair blue this morning and cut it (you can't really tell in this pic) . 6g (:
 

yes, i edited it, but i only edited it so the blue could stand out (: