Thursday, May 27, 2010

Brandon hasn't talked to me in a couple days. Shit, it's lonely
Why does my fucking phone have to mess up on aaron!? Out of all the people it has to be him? Arggg as is my life isn't complicated enough!!!
Love has so many different meanings to me. It means ur my brother, my sister, someone i love, i want you in my life....
we run out?Are we so high up that there isn't anything to keep us down?My head is in the clouds,my blood is on the ground.
What's supposed to happen to me?Can someone tell me the outcome of my life?Is fate real?Is love real?Is blood all we have to stay grounded,and what happens if
I smile at my own reflection, i take pictures of myself, yet i dislike myself. I don't think i'm ugly, i think i'm beautiful. U are all beautiful
Better but still down. Guessing games are fun within a certain context. No one has my back. Who can i trust?
I haven't cut in months. Yesterday was a release of all the bad blood but i still feel drained. I feel like, this time will be the time i can't dig myself out..
I want to see brandon's reaction on my recent pic
Patrick is asking me out again
I have no emotion past the numbness in my thoughts and clouding throughout my body
Raped 2 days ago. Raped 3 weeks ago too
Depressed and so tired
I can feel the blood leaving my body and my body growing weak

cuts

the damage. but there are more now
tUHbitha
Blood is running down ma leg cuz i scratched my cut. They've been bleeding all day