Tuesday, September 28, 2010
dan: most of the guys are bad. i'm attracted to a few people but they will never happen. it would be awkward and if so, you better say hello. my life is a mess. i'm sorry i caused you so much drama over the past years. i guess i'm the one with some growing up to do now. i'm proud of you, dan. ♥
sean dockery: i showed him all my visible scars to make him back off.... i think it worked.
john: i just looked at his twitter and i guess i'm his #1 hate in life. that's pretty harsh since he has the story wrong. i cried all last night over not being his friend anymore. yea, we were kind of drifting, i've been busy with 3+ hours of homework everynight and plans on the weekend. i miss having a best friend to talk to on the phone. on the other hand, he lied. that changes everything....
eric: i said hi to him in the hallways and he said "hi, tanya" back everytime and smiled. *yay* in french, he couldn't keep his eyes off me. sorry lauren.
kelsey: she brought up a great point, maybe lauren is lieing about all the guys? it's kind of hard to believe especially because she couldn't even make herself talk to eric (she has a major crush on that fellow) i think she's too shy to hook up with anyone... kelsey said she doesn't seem like the type that guys would go for.
andrew hastings: i think he saw me crying in the stairwell after graphics. i saw him out of the corner of my eye (my head was down) and he looked either shocked or confused.
people find it unusual that i'd be suffering from depression and breaking down. they think i'm this happy out-going person. when i saw the realization cross sean's face... he looked so guilty and shocked.... upset and i don't know... determined? he's just the biggest moron ever. is it weird that i've had a crush on him since the beginning of froshmeat year? there's four people at school that personally know that i cut myself: lauren bis, patrick oconner, samuel butler, and now sean dockery. he's probably going to tell everyone... if i'm put into another mental hospital, i will kill myself....
sean dockery: i showed him all my visible scars to make him back off.... i think it worked.
john: i just looked at his twitter and i guess i'm his #1 hate in life. that's pretty harsh since he has the story wrong. i cried all last night over not being his friend anymore. yea, we were kind of drifting, i've been busy with 3+ hours of homework everynight and plans on the weekend. i miss having a best friend to talk to on the phone. on the other hand, he lied. that changes everything....
eric: i said hi to him in the hallways and he said "hi, tanya" back everytime and smiled. *yay* in french, he couldn't keep his eyes off me. sorry lauren.
kelsey: she brought up a great point, maybe lauren is lieing about all the guys? it's kind of hard to believe especially because she couldn't even make herself talk to eric (she has a major crush on that fellow) i think she's too shy to hook up with anyone... kelsey said she doesn't seem like the type that guys would go for.
andrew hastings: i think he saw me crying in the stairwell after graphics. i saw him out of the corner of my eye (my head was down) and he looked either shocked or confused.
Monday, September 27, 2010
boy drama... like always... ♥♥♥
gawd, i haven't written on here for sooo long. i'll talk about guys first
john: i hate him for not being there for me anymore
dan: he's over me again...
anthony: he calls me a lot... i don't know if i'm interested anymore
zachary: he needs to take a chill pill
syie: definitely over him
chase: he admitted he still likes me (x he's my only bright spot right now, thinking of him makes me happy and tingly. i'm holding onto that with all my will
patdick: i'm not going to deal with his shit. if "i" go around to the whole school, he's going to deal with the police, i'm done trying to handle it anymore...
andrew hastings: him and i were talking during the summer, he started talking to me again. i guess he's dumping or dumped his girlfriend today to get with me... i don't trust him though, he's just a dumb jock. he freaks me out bc he's so fucking huge!!
did i mention john? oh yea well he hates me bc he doesn't trust me on what i say anymore. i didn't pressure him, he never fucking said no, he could've flat out said NO, but of course he didn't. i couldn't have cared less whether or not he was in love with me back. w/e him and i are over now. thanks john... you're the greatest, it's funny bc he's not going to read this...
eric: he's this freshman, this gorgeous 6'5" freshman, he looks like a model. i sat with him at lunch. gawd he's even more handsome up close. ever since he joined my french class, it's been my favorite ♥
i had therapy today. it sucked. don't want to talk about it. let's just say, it killed my good mood
john: i hate him for not being there for me anymore
dan: he's over me again...
anthony: he calls me a lot... i don't know if i'm interested anymore
zachary: he needs to take a chill pill
syie: definitely over him
chase: he admitted he still likes me (x he's my only bright spot right now, thinking of him makes me happy and tingly. i'm holding onto that with all my will
patdick: i'm not going to deal with his shit. if "i" go around to the whole school, he's going to deal with the police, i'm done trying to handle it anymore...
andrew hastings: him and i were talking during the summer, he started talking to me again. i guess he's dumping or dumped his girlfriend today to get with me... i don't trust him though, he's just a dumb jock. he freaks me out bc he's so fucking huge!!
did i mention john? oh yea well he hates me bc he doesn't trust me on what i say anymore. i didn't pressure him, he never fucking said no, he could've flat out said NO, but of course he didn't. i couldn't have cared less whether or not he was in love with me back. w/e him and i are over now. thanks john... you're the greatest, it's funny bc he's not going to read this...
eric: he's this freshman, this gorgeous 6'5" freshman, he looks like a model. i sat with him at lunch. gawd he's even more handsome up close. ever since he joined my french class, it's been my favorite ♥
i had therapy today. it sucked. don't want to talk about it. let's just say, it killed my good mood
Sunday, September 26, 2010
if you could go back to being a virgin again, would you?
uhm i'm not really sure... maybe... but losing it wasn't sooo bad. it's not the end of the world. nbd
Friday, September 24, 2010
bold what is true
bold what is true
001. i miss somebody right now.
002. i watch more tv than i used to.
003. i love olives.
004.I love sleeping
005. i own lots of books.
006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. i love to play video games.
008. i’ve watched porn movies.
010. i have been in a threesome.
011. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. i believe honesty is the best policy.
013. i have acne free skin.
014. i like and respect al sharpton.
015. i curse frequently.
016. i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.
019. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. i’m really, really smart.
021. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
022. i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal.
023. i love rain.
024. i’m paranoid at times.
025. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. i need money right now.
027. i love sushi.
028. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. i have fresh breath in the morning.
030. i have semi-long hair.
032. i have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.
034. i shave my legs.
035. i have a twin.
037. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.
038. i like the way that i look.
039.i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
041. i am usually pessimistic.
042. i have mood swings.
043. i think prostitution should be legalized.
044. i think britney spears is pretty.
045. i have cheated on a significant other.
046. i have a hidden talent.
047. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
048. i think that i’m popular.
049. I am currently single.
050.I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. i enjoy talking on the phone.
052. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.
053. i love to shop.
054. i would rather shop than eat.
055. i would classify myself as ghetto.
056. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. i’m obsessed with my blog.
058. i don’t hate anyone.
059. i’m a pretty good dancer.
060. i’m a horrible dancer.
061. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. i have a cell phone.
063. i watch muchmusic on a daily basis.
064. i cry myself to sleep.
065. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. i have never been in a real relationship before.
068. i’ve rejected someone before.
069. i currently have a crush on someone.
070. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
071. i want to have children in the future.
072. i have changed a diaper before.
073. i’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. i bite my nails.
075. i am a member of the tom green fan club.
076. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.
077. i have a lot to learn.
078. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. i plan on seeing ice cube’s newest “friday” movie.
080. i am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. i have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. i have tried alcohol before.
084. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
085. i own the “south park” movie.
087. when i was a kid i played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum.
088. i enjoy country music.
089. i love my best friend(s).
090. I think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
091. i watch soap operas whenever i can.
092. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
095. i know all the words to slick rick’s “children’s story”.
096. halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.
098. i have dated a close friend’s ex.
099. i’m happy as of this moment.
100. i have gone scuba diving.
101. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.
102. I’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.
103. i play a musical instrument.
104. i strongly dislike math.
105. i’m procrastinating on something right now.
106. i own and use a library card.
107. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.
108. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”
111. i am resentful that i have to grow up.
112. i am an entirely different person around different people.
113. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.
114. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. i am a nerd.
117.no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.
118. i am left handed and proud of it.
119. i don’t change who i am for someone else.
120. my heart resides below my feet.
121. i am a senior in high school.
122. i enjoy smoothies.
123. i have gastritis.
124. i have nothing better to do with my time. clearly.
125. i am listening to radiohead right now.
126. most people call me by my middle name.
127. i once stole a music stand.
128. pi confuses me.
129. i love nascar!
130. i own over 200 cds.
131. i work 7 days a week.
132. i have mono.
132. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
134. i’m only wearing underwear.
135. i had more than one thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.
137. i am the most over analytical person i know.
138. i believe in wasting time.
139. i don’t listen to too much music.
140. I have a shoe fetish.
141. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.
142. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. i love sex.
144. i wanna go home.
145. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.
146. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.
147. friends is (one of) my favorite tv shows.
148. i’m hungry.
149. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
150. I’m a potterhead and proud of it!
151. i noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
152. i lied about one of the items on this list.
153. my siblings are my best friends.
154. i believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
155. i have a problem expressing things.
156. i have lost a parent.
157. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.
158. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.
159. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.
160. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.
161. i love sundance.
162. i do not watch television.
163. i love starbucks coffee drinks.
164. i am living at least one lie right now.
165. i love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. i’m a techie.
167. i am writing this far, far too late/early.
168. i’m a little crazy.
169. i like the smell of white tic tacs.
170. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crises at this moment.
171. i don’t associate myself with any political parties.
172. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
173. i have thought about suicide.
174. i have no idea what i am going to write for my question.
175. i can be selfish.
176. i’m so emo at times.
177. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.
178. i think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
179. i cheated on a test before.
180. i am a member of animemusicvideos.org
181. i’m sick of drama.
182. i need a job.
183. I’ve fucked something up and don’t know how to get things back to normal.
184. I am in desperate need of new pyjamas
185. I am sometimes ashamed of the music I listen to.
186. I miss the way things used to be.
001. i miss somebody right now.
002. i watch more tv than i used to.
003. i love olives.
004.I love sleeping
005. i own lots of books.
006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. i love to play video games.
008. i’ve watched porn movies.
010. i have been in a threesome.
011. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. i believe honesty is the best policy.
013. i have acne free skin.
014. i like and respect al sharpton.
015. i curse frequently.
016. i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.
019. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. i’m really, really smart.
021. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
022. i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal.
023. i love rain.
024. i’m paranoid at times.
025. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. i need money right now.
027. i love sushi.
028. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. i have fresh breath in the morning.
030. i have semi-long hair.
032. i have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.
034. i shave my legs.
035. i have a twin.
037. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.
038. i like the way that i look.
039.i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
041. i am usually pessimistic.
042. i have mood swings.
043. i think prostitution should be legalized.
044. i think britney spears is pretty.
045. i have cheated on a significant other.
046. i have a hidden talent.
047. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
048. i think that i’m popular.
049. I am currently single.
050.I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. i enjoy talking on the phone.
052. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.
053. i love to shop.
054. i would rather shop than eat.
055. i would classify myself as ghetto.
056. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. i’m obsessed with my blog.
058. i don’t hate anyone.
059. i’m a pretty good dancer.
060. i’m a horrible dancer.
061. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. i have a cell phone.
063. i watch muchmusic on a daily basis.
064. i cry myself to sleep.
065. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. i have never been in a real relationship before.
068. i’ve rejected someone before.
069. i currently have a crush on someone.
070. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
071. i want to have children in the future.
072. i have changed a diaper before.
073. i’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. i bite my nails.
075. i am a member of the tom green fan club.
076. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.
077. i have a lot to learn.
078. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. i plan on seeing ice cube’s newest “friday” movie.
080. i am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. i have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. i have tried alcohol before.
084. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
085. i own the “south park” movie.
087. when i was a kid i played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum.
088. i enjoy country music.
089. i love my best friend(s).
090. I think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
091. i watch soap operas whenever i can.
092. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
095. i know all the words to slick rick’s “children’s story”.
096. halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.
098. i have dated a close friend’s ex.
099. i’m happy as of this moment.
100. i have gone scuba diving.
101. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.
102. I’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.
103. i play a musical instrument.
104. i strongly dislike math.
105. i’m procrastinating on something right now.
106. i own and use a library card.
107. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.
108. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”
111. i am resentful that i have to grow up.
112. i am an entirely different person around different people.
113. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.
114. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. i am a nerd.
117.no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.
118. i am left handed and proud of it.
119. i don’t change who i am for someone else.
120. my heart resides below my feet.
121. i am a senior in high school.
122. i enjoy smoothies.
123. i have gastritis.
124. i have nothing better to do with my time. clearly.
125. i am listening to radiohead right now.
126. most people call me by my middle name.
127. i once stole a music stand.
128. pi confuses me.
129. i love nascar!
130. i own over 200 cds.
131. i work 7 days a week.
132. i have mono.
132. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
134. i’m only wearing underwear.
135. i had more than one thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.
137. i am the most over analytical person i know.
138. i believe in wasting time.
139. i don’t listen to too much music.
140. I have a shoe fetish.
141. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.
142. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. i love sex.
144. i wanna go home.
145. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.
146. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.
147. friends is (one of) my favorite tv shows.
148. i’m hungry.
149. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
150. I’m a potterhead and proud of it!
151. i noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
152. i lied about one of the items on this list.
153. my siblings are my best friends.
154. i believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
155. i have a problem expressing things.
156. i have lost a parent.
157. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.
158. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.
159. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.
160. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.
161. i love sundance.
162. i do not watch television.
163. i love starbucks coffee drinks.
164. i am living at least one lie right now.
165. i love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. i’m a techie.
167. i am writing this far, far too late/early.
168. i’m a little crazy.
169. i like the smell of white tic tacs.
170. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crises at this moment.
171. i don’t associate myself with any political parties.
172. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
173. i have thought about suicide.
174. i have no idea what i am going to write for my question.
175. i can be selfish.
176. i’m so emo at times.
177. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.
178. i think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
179. i cheated on a test before.
180. i am a member of animemusicvideos.org
181. i’m sick of drama.
182. i need a job.
183. I’ve fucked something up and don’t know how to get things back to normal.
184. I am in desperate need of new pyjamas
185. I am sometimes ashamed of the music I listen to.
186. I miss the way things used to be.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
yes... i have a lot of guys... due to ron a roll
syie: 14, he's in love with me....?
anthony:16, i liked him first before he said he had a gf, now he doesn't, him and i talk on the phone. i love his voice, he thinks i'm funny and likes my dance moves (;
zachary:16, he's the one i was interested from the beginning. says he likes veeka but says he likes me more. veeka has dibs, so i'm not interceding.
andrew:15, that kid talks way too much for a boy...
patrick: i had a plan for that boy.... w/e it's fucked now... he's getting the police at his door...
dan: i love you dan, you're mine. you're my only one (x <3 you're my world <3
syie: 14, he's in love with me....?
anthony:16, i liked him first before he said he had a gf, now he doesn't, him and i talk on the phone. i love his voice, he thinks i'm funny and likes my dance moves (;
zachary:16, he's the one i was interested from the beginning. says he likes veeka but says he likes me more. veeka has dibs, so i'm not interceding.
andrew:15, that kid talks way too much for a boy...
patrick: i had a plan for that boy.... w/e it's fucked now... he's getting the police at his door...
dan: i love you dan, you're mine. you're my only one (x <3 you're my world <3
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
wow... im kinda offended because you said u would kiss any of your lady friends but... u have kissed me and you would again so thats f'ed up k bye
no i mean from school... i didn't mean you... you know i'd kiss you, duh, i like you.... we're done??
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now
1. (x
2. >.<
1. (x
2. >.<
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Day Eight: Three Turn ons
Day Eight: Three Turn ons
1.extremely tall
2. looks/hygiene
3. great teeth/smile/lips
1.extremely tall
2. looks/hygiene
3. great teeth/smile/lips
would u ever kiss one of your other ladyfriends?
ew no i'm not attracted to any of them, that's gross.
convo w/ HIM on fb!!!!
lol its cool...miss you though. ima go cook some food but you can still txt me when ever
stay out of trouble young lady
omigosh he's soooo gorgeous and he misses meee yayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's coming home tonight.... mmmm (; i hope i'm alone tonight so he can stop by for a while.... maybe i will have sex this year hahahahahhaha omj soooo happyyyyyy (x
stay out of trouble young lady
omigosh he's soooo gorgeous and he misses meee yayyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he's coming home tonight.... mmmm (; i hope i'm alone tonight so he can stop by for a while.... maybe i will have sex this year hahahahahhaha omj soooo happyyyyyy (x
Dear Tanya, I love you and miss you and most of my old buddies in town. However- I would never be caught dead going to school at RHS. Just sayin! <3
Dear Richi (<< i'm going to spell it like that) I miss and love you, too! I wouldn't be caught dead at RHS either; that's why i don't go there!!!! <33
Friday, September 17, 2010
turns out: i'm bipolar. my therapist saw the symtoms...
Symptoms could include:
[X] Depression
[X]Sleeplessness
[X] Drug Abuse
[X] Irritability
[X] Mood Swings
[X] Guilt
[X] Suicidal Thoughts
[X] Restlessness
[X] Depressed Mood
[X] Impulsivity
[X] Racing Thoughts
[X] Social Withdrawal
[ ] Binge Drinking
[X] Impatient
[X] Easily Distracted
[X] Difficulty Falling Asleep
[ ] Problem Behavior
[ ] Delusions of Grandeur
[X] Feeling Hopeless
[X]Risk-Taking Behavior
[X] Poor Self Esteem
[X] Unable to Concentrate
[X]Outbursts of Anger
[X]Difficulty Making Decisions
[X] Hyperactivity
[ ] Irresponsible Behavior
[X] Unintentional Weight Loss
[X] Early Awakening
[X] Temper Problem
[ ] Inflated Self Opinion
[X] Weight Loss
[X] Fatigue
[ ] Weight Gain
[X] Tired
[X] General Weakness
[ ] Binge Eating
[ ] Lying
[X] Hostility
[X] Loss of Appetite
[X] Decreased Need For Sleep
[X] Daytime Sleepiness
[X] Elevated mood
[X] Talkative
[X] Forgetful
[X] Excessive Sleep
[X] Problems at School
[ ] Poor Hygiene
[X] Threatening Suicide
[X] Uncontrollable Crying
[X] Withdrawn Behavior
[X] Difficulty Staying Asleep
[X] Self-Depreciation
[X] Unable to Think Clearly
[X] Volatile Mood
[ ] Unintentional Weight Gain
[X] Thoughts About Dying
[ ] Neglected Appearance
[X] Indifferent Mood
[X]Loss of Capacity For Enjoyment
[X]Euphoric Mood
as you can see: most of these have X's in them...
[X] Depression
[X]Sleeplessness
[X] Drug Abuse
[X] Irritability
[X] Mood Swings
[X] Guilt
[X] Suicidal Thoughts
[X] Restlessness
[X] Depressed Mood
[X] Impulsivity
[X] Racing Thoughts
[X] Social Withdrawal
[ ] Binge Drinking
[X] Impatient
[X] Easily Distracted
[X] Difficulty Falling Asleep
[ ] Problem Behavior
[ ] Delusions of Grandeur
[X] Feeling Hopeless
[X]Risk-Taking Behavior
[X] Poor Self Esteem
[X] Unable to Concentrate
[X]Outbursts of Anger
[X]Difficulty Making Decisions
[X] Hyperactivity
[ ] Irresponsible Behavior
[X] Unintentional Weight Loss
[X] Early Awakening
[X] Temper Problem
[ ] Inflated Self Opinion
[X] Weight Loss
[X] Fatigue
[ ] Weight Gain
[X] Tired
[X] General Weakness
[ ] Binge Eating
[ ] Lying
[X] Hostility
[X] Loss of Appetite
[X] Decreased Need For Sleep
[X] Daytime Sleepiness
[X] Elevated mood
[X] Talkative
[X] Forgetful
[X] Excessive Sleep
[X] Problems at School
[ ] Poor Hygiene
[X] Threatening Suicide
[X] Uncontrollable Crying
[X] Withdrawn Behavior
[X] Difficulty Staying Asleep
[X] Self-Depreciation
[X] Unable to Think Clearly
[X] Volatile Mood
[ ] Unintentional Weight Gain
[X] Thoughts About Dying
[ ] Neglected Appearance
[X] Indifferent Mood
[X]Loss of Capacity For Enjoyment
[X]Euphoric Mood
as you can see: most of these have X's in them...
We need to hNg soon I need a friend right now
aww ): same here girly! people are seriously bitching you out on fs, i'm sorry ): i hope school is better. ilysm <3 <3 i don't have my cell back, yet, though
cross me out
I say I'm not pretty. Not because I'm looking for attention or compliments, but because that's truly how I feel. I don't believe that I am pretty because I can see everything you don't. I see how my stomach looks when I'm standing in my bra. I see the face under the make up. I see every little flaw about myself, even if you can't. I see what I look like when i wake up in the morning, or when i walk out of the shower. I look in the mirror and ask myself "if you saw me standing in front of you like this, you'd see what I've been saying." I'm not a beautiful person. Everything about me; I want to change; everything I see is the truth screaming "you're absolutely, atrociously, and incredibly hideous." Thanks, God, for making me look like this. Thanks for giving me the body and face that I hate to wake up to every morning. Those moments when i feel beautiful; I feel like I'm on top of the world. Though, someone always comes along and says something to knock me off my high. Why can't people accept the fact that I'm unattractive? Do they do it to make themselves feel more appealing and beautiful? Or, are they so insecure about their own looks that they have to impress people with the insults they throw at me? Why was I born like this? I say I'm not pretty because I'd be lying if I said I was.
Daniel seems like a creeper tuhbith watch out hehe he might find out where you live haha B L cauff cauff :*
omj! why'd you tell, you moron!!! i can't believe you'd do something like that haha jk jk ily(x
Day Seven: Four Turn Offs
Day Seven: Four Turn Offs
1. fat
2. smells bad
3. bad hygiene
4. ugly in general
(yea... i'm a bitch...)
1. fat
2. smells bad
3. bad hygiene
4. ugly in general
(yea... i'm a bitch...)
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) i missed this one!
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
1. john
2. chad
3. lauren
4. vica
5. kelsey
1. john
2. chad
3. lauren
4. vica
5. kelsey
Thursday, September 16, 2010
yeahhh made a new oneee... other one got completely hacked and they disabled the account and changed the password >.<
oh wow... that sucks! sorry !!!
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change
1. my nose
2. how shy i am
3. all the shit in the world
4. religion
5. politics
6. love
1. my nose
2. how shy i am
3. all the shit in the world
4. religion
5. politics
6. love
are you saying...that you would fuck a girl as long as she didnt go to your school?
ew i don't have sex with them. i kiss them haha
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
wanna expairment with me? we can go all the wayyyy :) everyy dayy and nightt
can you tell me who this is, if you go to my school, it's a definate no.
that would make you bi.
it doesn't make me bi. i don't think of girls sexually, only her because she is attracted back so it's kind of like an experiment. nbd.
so ur bi? and who is this girl?
i'm more curious and idk if you know the girl. do you go to my school?
so ur a lezbo now. wann come to my party. u bring the beer i have a dildo
lol where ever you heard that, you heard wrong, i'm straight. i only like one girl and that's it. legit. get your rumors right, bitch
day 7 on 8 day schedule=least fave ever
so idk but i have this weird feeling that the douche-face is dissing me
today was absolutely awful bc i see none of my friends except for before school and after school
i have to see patrick everywhere and get fucking panic attacks, i don't think he can tell though, i try to compose myself. my heart goes insane though, beating like crazy from the adrenaline from seeing him. i seriously hate having to go to the same school he goes to.
therapy isn't helping. it's hard to say everything outloud to a stranger. i don't want to get close to my parents or i would've already made the effort. therapy=waste
i had to sit by myself for lunch and study bc none of my friends were around, just the haters.
going to veeka's meet. <3 her. i'll be happy soon (i hope)
i wish i could see my friends, but we have no classes together. i can't just join a new clique bc they all form during frosh year (last year) i'm too shy to talk to the haters. i don't have a phone to talk to friends, i can't go on facebook, i don't trust people with secrets
i don't use twitter that much. it's just connected to my tumblr.
fuck you
today was absolutely awful bc i see none of my friends except for before school and after school
i have to see patrick everywhere and get fucking panic attacks, i don't think he can tell though, i try to compose myself. my heart goes insane though, beating like crazy from the adrenaline from seeing him. i seriously hate having to go to the same school he goes to.
therapy isn't helping. it's hard to say everything outloud to a stranger. i don't want to get close to my parents or i would've already made the effort. therapy=waste
i had to sit by myself for lunch and study bc none of my friends were around, just the haters.
going to veeka's meet. <3 her. i'll be happy soon (i hope)
i wish i could see my friends, but we have no classes together. i can't just join a new clique bc they all form during frosh year (last year) i'm too shy to talk to the haters. i don't have a phone to talk to friends, i can't go on facebook, i don't trust people with secrets
i don't use twitter that much. it's just connected to my tumblr.
fuck you
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
1. do i look okay?
2. boys(:
3. i should really get my face fixed.
4. i'm way too shy!!!
5. i need to paint my nails
6. i need to change that!!!
7. why am i such a loser???
1. do i look okay?
2. boys(:
3. i should really get my face fixed.
4. i'm way too shy!!!
5. i need to paint my nails
6. i need to change that!!!
7. why am i such a loser???
Monday, September 13, 2010
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart
1. don't lie to me
2. no cheaters
3. don't try too hard to be cool, i can always see through a fake
4. make me laugh
5. don't make me uncomfortable
6. talk to me. i hate awkward silences
7. call me, not just a text
8. tell me in person that you love me and mean it when you say it
1. don't lie to me
2. no cheaters
3. don't try too hard to be cool, i can always see through a fake
4. make me laugh
5. don't make me uncomfortable
6. talk to me. i hate awkward silences
7. call me, not just a text
8. tell me in person that you love me and mean it when you say it
Tanya i hope you get this message like today. i need my literature story book.. like seriously i have homework in it.. can u drop it off at my house?
omj! sorry! i couldn't find you after school and i had an appointment with some person and i didn't get home until like 5 and now it's like 840!!! ):
Hayy you butt,haha burr its FREEZING i am about to go to skool haha it 6:27 AM haha its gonna rain haha talk about a frizzy hair day haha
awww! sorry bout your hair sweety!!! >.< that blows haha (: and omj ikr!!!! it's sooo fucking cold! i wore khakis to school!! <3 you
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
1: i was born in russia
2: i love to sing
3: when i write 'lol' i'm actually giggling or smiling
4: i hate wasting my time on someone who won't waste their time on me
5: i've only been in love (seriously) once
6: i really don't like sex all that much
7: i'm totally me, nothing fazes my unique-ness
8: i don't have a role model/super hero
9: i remember the stupidest things and forget some of the most important things
10: i'm extremely insecure and break down from the littlest things, yep, i have a problem
1: i was born in russia
2: i love to sing
3: when i write 'lol' i'm actually giggling or smiling
4: i hate wasting my time on someone who won't waste their time on me
5: i've only been in love (seriously) once
6: i really don't like sex all that much
7: i'm totally me, nothing fazes my unique-ness
8: i don't have a role model/super hero
9: i remember the stupidest things and forget some of the most important things
10: i'm extremely insecure and break down from the littlest things, yep, i have a problem
where were u on friday!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry! i couldn't make it! omj i feel so bad. my parents wouldn't let me go, but i soooo wanted to. don't hate mee
)x
Saturday, September 11, 2010
i need you
all the thoughts i hold in my head are about my heart, the state of my heart to be exact. it scares me what my mind conjures up throughout the day. i know what i’m thinking, but i always feel out of body in some weird way. i’m lonely, and i’m afraid. are you there? listening to me? i need this, i need you.
Day One: Ten things you wanna say to ten different people right now
Day One: Ten things you wanna say to ten different people right now
1: i think you're so annoying
2: i miss you
3: don't bitch at me when you've got the gossip wrong
4: why do you even like her?
5: you're my favorite
6: when i say 'i love you,' i'm lieing
7: playing monopoly with you is more fun than playing monopoly with her
8: sorry, i couldn't make it last night
9: have fun at cheerleading
10: can you come keep me company?
1: i think you're so annoying
2: i miss you
3: don't bitch at me when you've got the gossip wrong
4: why do you even like her?
5: you're my favorite
6: when i say 'i love you,' i'm lieing
7: playing monopoly with you is more fun than playing monopoly with her
8: sorry, i couldn't make it last night
9: have fun at cheerleading
10: can you come keep me company?
ten
ten
Day One: Ten things you wanna say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four Turn Offs
Day Eight: Three Turn ons
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now
Day Ten: One confession
Day One: Ten things you wanna say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day Five: Six things you wish you could change
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four Turn Offs
Day Eight: Three Turn ons
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now
Day Ten: One confession
9.11
Weird Coincidences:
1) New York City has 11 letters
2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.
3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to
destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.
4) George W Bush has 11 letters.
5) The two twin towers make an “11″
This could be a mere coincidence, but this gets more interesting:
1) New York is the 11th state.
2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.
3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9 + 2 = 11
4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers.
6+5 = 11
5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11
6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911.
9 + 1 + 1 = 11.
Sheer coincidence. .?! Read on and make up your own mind:
1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year.
Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.
3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3 + 1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.
4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.
Sheer coincidence. .?! Read on and make up your own mind: Now this is where things get totally eerie:
The most recognized symbol for the US,after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Koran, the Islamic holy book:
“For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace.”
That verse is number 9.11 of the Koran.
Still unconvinced about all of this..?! Try this
Open Microsoft Word and do the following (TRY THIS FOR REAL)
1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.
2. Highlight the Q33 NY
3. Change the font size to 48.
4. Change the actual font to the WINGDINGS 1.
THIS IS ALL SOOOO WEIRD! MUST OF TAKEN SOOO MUCH PLANNING! ONE SMART-ASS PERSON HAD TO FIGURE ALL THAT SHIT OUT!
>.< creepy!!!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Monday, September 6, 2010
i want you to feel my cum squirt deep in your little pussy
seriously, i'm laughing my face off at what you're saying right now, you're hysterical, you should do stand-up. what are you trying to prove, anyways?
its not creeping at all, you click the button that says post to facebook and everyone see's it. you do it on purpose. so..you're putting it out there for people to see.
oh lol, there IS a check in the facebook box! sorry, my bad, i honestly didn't know. i'm sorry, after this, i'll remove the check. bye! (:
then lets meet and see how tight you are sweety
ew lol want to leave me the fuck alone now, k thanks sweety (x
not stalking you "sweety" its on my facebook news feed.
i apologize for contaminating your feed then (;
haha no not at all..
haha totally.... what period is it anyways, do you know? i left my sched at school on friday haha (x
why the fuck are you still talking to that sicko "hardjonny" seriously, do you WANT to get raped? and your answers are disturbing. seriously tanya.
haha i'm just answering what he's saying, i don't delete answers, why are you stalking my formspring anyways, isn't that kind of 'disturbing?' o.O
haha not much, you? are you excited for gym on thursday!!!?
ughh noooo lmao, i sure as hell hope you're not haha
mmmmm your 15 sweety, your pussy will be very tight to me
you don't know everything about me, though (x
dan you don't say anything after my "dan situation" post
wtf is up with that?
i kind of expected some kind of response
but all you fucking say is "ilysm dey"
way to make me feel like you hate me
i know you don't like me
i plainly fucking stated that
i know we don't talk anymore
but it feels like you've forgotten all about me
so thanks for the love dan
much appreciated you douche-bag
oh yea, and thanks for being kristina's new bff
it's the icing on the cake
not really
we're done
i know
you're going to say
"tanya, we weren't anything to begin with"
or someshit like that
but whatever....
wtf is up with that?
i kind of expected some kind of response
but all you fucking say is "ilysm dey"
way to make me feel like you hate me
i know you don't like me
i plainly fucking stated that
i know we don't talk anymore
but it feels like you've forgotten all about me
so thanks for the love dan
much appreciated you douche-bag
oh yea, and thanks for being kristina's new bff
it's the icing on the cake
not really
we're done
i know
you're going to say
"tanya, we weren't anything to begin with"
or someshit like that
but whatever....
i know i'm going to miss you
and i know you're not going to post on your blog about this
i know i'm nothing but a memory
if you even want to remember me...
but i know i won't stop thinking about you
you'll always be in the back of my mind
so maybe in the future...
we'll cross paths again
but i guess i sound like my hormones are acting retarded
i do love you, though, dan
i wish you felt the same way
....forever....
mmmmmm i wana fuck you befor january then sweety :)
why...? lol you're a funny dude, what are you... 34? isn't that kind of like you're a pedo, and what's with you calling me sweety in every question/response? are you trying to make ME hard or someshit, NEWSFLASH: i'm a proud owner of a VAGINA (x
dan is also an asshole...
going to go golfing with dad.... golfcart driving FTW (:
i'm super hungry... but i don't want to eat
my makeup's blue!!!
i look kind of like a punk-farmer-chick haha (8
today's kristina's 13th bday, who gives a shit?
i had soo much homework today, like 3hours worth, not kidding
i really want my cellular back
lurid means ghastly
my fingernails remind me of that black barbie doll
yesterday i went to the hook's beachhouse and jgonz was there...he's really weird...not interested haha
i like the song "jar of hearts"
going to go golfing with dad.... golfcart driving FTW (:
i'm super hungry... but i don't want to eat
my makeup's blue!!!
i look kind of like a punk-farmer-chick haha (8
today's kristina's 13th bday, who gives a shit?
i had soo much homework today, like 3hours worth, not kidding
i really want my cellular back
lurid means ghastly
my fingernails remind me of that black barbie doll
yesterday i went to the hook's beachhouse and jgonz was there...he's really weird...not interested haha
i like the song "jar of hearts"
Sunday, September 5, 2010
funny morning shit (x
peanut butter peed on vica's foot (x
i wiped out in the living room and my mom went hysterical on me
my hair is in 3 french braids and i look like a pippy longstockings poseur or someshit
i wiped out in the living room and my mom went hysterical on me
my hair is in 3 french braids and i look like a pippy longstockings poseur or someshit
john's list of why he's in love with me, it's so cute (:
You always know how to have fun
You can make almost anybody laugh
You love and care for your friends
You are fun to just be around
Just hearing your voice or seeing you cheers e up and reminds me that I love you
You have the most beautiful singing voice, so beautiful it makes the music itself sound better
You have me wrapped around your finger because I'd do anything to make you happy
Whenever you're sad and depressed enough to cut, i feel like i owe you better because you deserve the best and I should be able to keep you from cutting
Staying mad at you is nearly impossible because just talking to you makes me happy
You are so easy to make laugh and cheer up
I can actually be myself around you
You are the most beautiful girl, yet you are so self-concious, it makes it modest
Just about everything you do, you do in an adorable way
You are shy yet somehow so comfortable and outgoing with people you know
You write the most deep thoughts down like poetry, and you make it so thoughtful and deep
You make me feel like I am actually wanted by someone when it seems like the world could do so easily without me
Your touch has a weird feeling, im not entirely sure how to explain it... its almost electric
I love the way you are so proud and (only sometimes love) stubborn
You could say anything and it would be interesting to me just because its you saying it
You are so smart, unlike most girls, you actually seem to care about your education
You how to laugh at yourself, unlike some people who have no sense of humor
You are honest and wouldnt care to lie to anyone
You are actually faithful and honest in a relationship
When i dont know if you are okay, I get kind of worried and it makes me feel a little more human, like i care, less like a heartless bastard
The more things i write on this list, the more i realize how much i love you
im hesitant to even send this but i wrote it for you so i figure you deserve it... put it on your blog if you care to, i dont really care...
You can make almost anybody laugh
You love and care for your friends
You are fun to just be around
Just hearing your voice or seeing you cheers e up and reminds me that I love you
You have the most beautiful singing voice, so beautiful it makes the music itself sound better
You have me wrapped around your finger because I'd do anything to make you happy
Whenever you're sad and depressed enough to cut, i feel like i owe you better because you deserve the best and I should be able to keep you from cutting
Staying mad at you is nearly impossible because just talking to you makes me happy
You are so easy to make laugh and cheer up
I can actually be myself around you
You are the most beautiful girl, yet you are so self-concious, it makes it modest
Just about everything you do, you do in an adorable way
You are shy yet somehow so comfortable and outgoing with people you know
You write the most deep thoughts down like poetry, and you make it so thoughtful and deep
You make me feel like I am actually wanted by someone when it seems like the world could do so easily without me
Your touch has a weird feeling, im not entirely sure how to explain it... its almost electric
I love the way you are so proud and (only sometimes love) stubborn
You could say anything and it would be interesting to me just because its you saying it
You are so smart, unlike most girls, you actually seem to care about your education
You how to laugh at yourself, unlike some people who have no sense of humor
You are honest and wouldnt care to lie to anyone
You are actually faithful and honest in a relationship
When i dont know if you are okay, I get kind of worried and it makes me feel a little more human, like i care, less like a heartless bastard
The more things i write on this list, the more i realize how much i love you
im hesitant to even send this but i wrote it for you so i figure you deserve it... put it on your blog if you care to, i dont really care...
Saturday, September 4, 2010
i'm going through this faze where my depression is taking over my hunger. i just can't eat anymore without getting sick from it. food is just gross and doesn't help me, i'm getting thinner, don't get me wrong, i'm still eating because i take care of myself, food just doesn't appeal to me anymore, though. i haven't eaten much for the past couple months, but i've noticed it a lot more than usual recently...
dan situation
yes, dan, i stalk your blog....
dan situation:
i like this dude named DANJUANMARTINEZ
he's a year younger than me, usually that means UNDATEABLE
he's different though
i think we have chemistry, but all the girls think that with him because he is what the scientists call:
A CHRONIC FLIRT
chronic flirt: flirts with any decent human being, female in his case, doesn't matter if she's pretty (e.g. veeka) or ugly (e.g. kirsty) he'll flirt with them all
well, i guess i fell for him
i don't know how to quite explain, but i'll try my best
i like him, he's cute, tall, fit, and has a heart crushing smile (yes, cheesey i know)
he makes me laugh, blush, and smile
legit: i smile everytime i see him
when he hugs me, i feel like i actually matter, and i'm not alone
he entertains me when i'm bored
he's usually goofy and immature, but there's this side of him that, idk, is really serious and sensitive
but he doesn't get that i'm shy i guess
yes, i'll be the first to admit it, i'm always awkward with a guy i actually like, it takes me a while to get comfortable, i can flirt with the best of them when it doesn't matter, but when things like that matter, i shut down and get stupid
i don't want a boyfriend, but dan wants a girlfriend
dan always manages to break my heart
i always love him, though
i don't want a serious relationship, God, i'm only in highschool
dan can't wrap his mind around that
i can't do the whole: i don't have to see you every day thing
i need to be able to see my bf at least once or twice a week
dan lives kind of far away, and we go to different schools
different schools=different drama
i don't think dan is EMOTIONALLY READY to handle me
i'm kind of protective
i'm depressed
i'm extremely good at argueing
i'm a bitch
sometimes i move too fast and regret it
i close up and won't talk to you for days
it's easy to upset me
i don't think dan would be able to handle me if i call him up in tears and covered in blood
i wouldn't want to put him through that
so dan, that's most of the situation with you, i had no idea you even read my blog anymore, i thought you didn't care. i know you don't love me like i love you, it's alright, though. as long as you're still around and talking to me, or even if you just popped up sometime in the future randomly, there will be a smile on my face.
daniel juan martinez, i love your name, i love you
i hope you understand me a little better now
-t
dan situation:
i like this dude named DANJUANMARTINEZ
he's a year younger than me, usually that means UNDATEABLE
he's different though
i think we have chemistry, but all the girls think that with him because he is what the scientists call:
A CHRONIC FLIRT
chronic flirt: flirts with any decent human being, female in his case, doesn't matter if she's pretty (e.g. veeka) or ugly (e.g. kirsty) he'll flirt with them all
well, i guess i fell for him
i don't know how to quite explain, but i'll try my best
i like him, he's cute, tall, fit, and has a heart crushing smile (yes, cheesey i know)
he makes me laugh, blush, and smile
legit: i smile everytime i see him
when he hugs me, i feel like i actually matter, and i'm not alone
he entertains me when i'm bored
he's usually goofy and immature, but there's this side of him that, idk, is really serious and sensitive
but he doesn't get that i'm shy i guess
yes, i'll be the first to admit it, i'm always awkward with a guy i actually like, it takes me a while to get comfortable, i can flirt with the best of them when it doesn't matter, but when things like that matter, i shut down and get stupid
i don't want a boyfriend, but dan wants a girlfriend
dan always manages to break my heart
i always love him, though
i don't want a serious relationship, God, i'm only in highschool
dan can't wrap his mind around that
i can't do the whole: i don't have to see you every day thing
i need to be able to see my bf at least once or twice a week
dan lives kind of far away, and we go to different schools
different schools=different drama
i don't think dan is EMOTIONALLY READY to handle me
i'm kind of protective
i'm depressed
i'm extremely good at argueing
i'm a bitch
sometimes i move too fast and regret it
i close up and won't talk to you for days
it's easy to upset me
i don't think dan would be able to handle me if i call him up in tears and covered in blood
i wouldn't want to put him through that
so dan, that's most of the situation with you, i had no idea you even read my blog anymore, i thought you didn't care. i know you don't love me like i love you, it's alright, though. as long as you're still around and talking to me, or even if you just popped up sometime in the future randomly, there will be a smile on my face.
daniel juan martinez, i love your name, i love you
i hope you understand me a little better now
-t
Friday, September 3, 2010
i think kristina told dan shit about me or something like that. he like, DESPISES, me. kristina said the other day "oooh tanya, dan doesn't like you anymore" and she was texting him the wwwwhoooollleeee day so yea. plus dan was like:
posted by swaggless G at Sn0wsk8 - 6 days ago
kristina gave meh some advice and idk if i should take it or nott.
i think it has to do with me....
why would dan ask for advice about anything else, she's fucking 12 years old!!??!?!!
it pisses me off that dan would even talk to kris about me
she hates me, so no shit she is going to fuck me over with this whole "dan situation"
fuck my life
posted by swaggless G at Sn0wsk8 - 6 days ago
kristina gave meh some advice and idk if i should take it or nott.
i think it has to do with me....
why would dan ask for advice about anything else, she's fucking 12 years old!!??!?!!
it pisses me off that dan would even talk to kris about me
she hates me, so no shit she is going to fuck me over with this whole "dan situation"
fuck my life
side note!!!
want to know what i just figured out? (say yes, i'm going to tell you anyways)
daniels never like me....
not that i would like this guy, yes he was attractive and tall and older and had nice lips and teeth and pretty eyes and gorgeous hair and a beautiful tan and and and.......
well that stuff doesn't matter because i don't really know him, you know? you can't (or should say) shouldn't like a guy just because of looks and all those other superficial traits (sidenote: he plays lacrosse) you should like the dude (or girl, for whoever's reading) because of their substance. personality is something you have to look at after you look at their face/body/outsides (not meant to be perverted fyi) you need to converse with one another and have substance there. you see where i'm getting at??
daniels never like me....
not that i would like this guy, yes he was attractive and tall and older and had nice lips and teeth and pretty eyes and gorgeous hair and a beautiful tan and and and.......
well that stuff doesn't matter because i don't really know him, you know? you can't (or should say) shouldn't like a guy just because of looks and all those other superficial traits (sidenote: he plays lacrosse) you should like the dude (or girl, for whoever's reading) because of their substance. personality is something you have to look at after you look at their face/body/outsides (not meant to be perverted fyi) you need to converse with one another and have substance there. you see where i'm getting at??
half day today
sooo boring. i hated that book
i seriously don't understand why everyone loved it
yes, it has good messaging
but the author made the book confusing and weird
i think he had no talent as a writer
my opinion though
anyyywayyys
after school was over (after the 25 minute traffic in the parking lot)
i had to go to the mall to buy spandex for volleyball, was not fun
my mom was eating sooo slow at the food court
an old man was staring at me so i felt completely uncomfortable
plus, i hate my uniform
i was wearing it in public
i tried finding pix of my uniform, but couldn't find any so here's a pic of me in my winter/fall uniform
yea, so it's not that flattering
so then we went to staples
bc i need a planner to write down homework/events for school
and some guy from East is there!
i was embarrased...
i'm shy, so stop laughing
anyways i asked one of the men that worked there where i could find the agendas
he led me there and walked away after i said "thank you" (yes, he replied "you're welcome)
then the guy from East comes over looking for an agenda after talking/asking the same man the same question!!!
so the guy stands right next to me, his arm is touching mine and he's like "East?" and nudges me
i'm like "yea" and i don't look at him bc, yep, i suffer from: SHYNESS
anywho, after my mom and i check out she tells me
"tanya, that boy was cute, do you know him?"
"no mom, i've just seen him around school a few times."
"oh, well, he couldn't keep his eyes off you"
**blushesmadly**
"SHUT UP, MOM!!!"
.....
"are you serious, mom, he was really looking at me???!"
"yes, practically the whole time"
"OMJ!!!!"
**blushesagain**
now i'm home, typing this up
i looked him up in the yearbook, he's only a year older than i am
(junior)
his name is daniel
(:
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