so i guess dan's done with the blogging world. i'm going to need someone new to creep on (; ♥

wow, dan really does sound more mature.

john called me... i didn't know what to say so i studied my notes.
anthony called and asked me to sing. he said i was great. yay (x
the whole sean thing is still bothering me though. 

telling her my story

dan: most of the guys are bad. i'm attracted to a few people but they will never happen. it would be awkward and if so, you better say hello. my life is a mess. i'm sorry i caused you so much drama over the past years. i guess i'm the one with some growing up to do now. i'm proud of you, dan. ♥

sean dockery: i showed him all my visible scars to make him back off.... i think it worked.

john: i just looked at his twitter and i guess i'm his #1 hate in life. that's pretty harsh since he has the story wrong. i cried all last night over not being his friend anymore. yea, we were kind of drifting, i've been busy with 3+ hours of homework everynight and plans on the weekend. i miss having a best friend to talk to on the phone. on the other hand, he lied. that changes everything....

eric: i said hi to him in the hallways and he said "hi, tanya" back everytime and smiled. *yay* in french, he couldn't keep his eyes off me. sorry lauren.

kelsey: she brought up a great point, maybe lauren is lieing about all the guys? it's kind of hard to believe especially because she couldn't even make herself talk to eric (she has a major crush on that fellow) i think she's too shy to hook up with anyone... kelsey said she doesn't seem like the type that guys would go for.

andrew hastings: i think he saw me crying in the stairwell after graphics. i saw him out of the corner of my eye (my head was down) and he looked either shocked or confused.

people find it unusual that i'd be suffering from depression and breaking down. they think i'm this happy out-going person. when i saw the realization cross sean's face... he looked so guilty and shocked.... upset and i don't know... determined? he's just the  biggest moron ever. is it weird that i've had a crush on him since the beginning of froshmeat year? there's four people at school that personally know that i cut myself: lauren bis, patrick oconner, samuel butler, and now sean dockery. he's probably going to tell everyone... if i'm put into another mental hospital, i will kill myself....