o crap bis i have no idea what to get you for your bday! i'm horrible with gifts, i never know what to get haha..... what do you want? just tell me haha and i'll get it for you lmao. last night sucked. i told you about some of it but like okay. i told julia a while ago that i liked nate for a really long time. and julia is absolutely gorgeous and perfect so she goes over and starts talking to him (this is like 2 weeks ago) so now they both like each other. she is really mean. i like her because she is like a girl i can be attracted to and she is attracted to me back. but yesterday julia told me that she is pissed at me for not wanting a relationship with her and was like well i'm extremely fucking pissed at you because you're flirting with nate when i used to be the girl he liked. and then she kisses me (and take a pic of it w/ my phone [we were in the bathroom having this "discussion"]) and then she leaves the br to talk to nate again. guess what i did! i looked at the pic and deleted it. i've never had a pic of me kissing anyone, only a video of me making out with nick....
billy who is 23 skated with me most of the time and he kept like grabbing my hands and saying i was cute/gorgeous/pretty you know the usual shit. and he kept touching my stomach and legs and asking me to kiss him but i so did not i mean. i don't even like him. i was only skating with him bc julia wasn't.
none of that shit would've even happened if vica hadn't have ditched me, she decided not to go.... i mean really?! i went into a depression last night. i wish dan would've gone instead of julez (he was supposed to) but he might come over tomorrow, his and my dad just need to talk to make out arrangements. (: pray for that one raine.
dan had a dream about me last night. he said him and i were cuddling at camp under the sports tree on the overnight and vica sees us and like yelled at us and walked away and he said i ran after her and he was just sitting there alone the whole night waiting for me to come back. it was really sad. vica is dating justin. she is stupid all she does is flirt with dan, dan has liked me for two years and vica and him had a 2 week fling last summer, but he said he never stopped liking me. i had a boyfriend last summer so he couldn't like make a move or anything. i've liked dan since the first time i met him at ron a roll, before i even knew he came to our camp. vica and i were dressed as twins and he skated up to us and asked us if he knew us from somewhere because we all looked familiar to each other. i had a crush instantly bc he is so fucking cute(: so vica asked if he was single for me lmao bc i'm a shy bitch.
(wow this is a long email)
so dan and i have been tight eversince, our sleep is even insynch haha (: we went to bed like around 12:30 something last night and woke up a minute apart from each other this morning (: i seriously love him, he says he loves me too, but it's hard to believe it after all the shit that's happened between him and i.
well lauren, you have a lot of reading to do. congrats on finishing your books (: and i hope your knee gets better, you live in a household full of selfish fags that don't give a shit about their daughter/sister. but lauren, guess what? I LOVE YOU!
forever,
tanya (:
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