something i found off some guys profile that was sticking up for me, i can relate to his feeling here

this song i wrote when i was 13 is for my hommie who passed away, i kinda had to stop writing it cause it made meto deppressed, here it is how the fuck could you stay here. thinking i was there for her when i was here for you.now im looking out this window wishing hopeing that youll see it come true. i grabbed a razor blade stuck in watched all this blood running from my veins, my life, my heart. now its all over the floor. i just cant stay here with this scar for the reminder of you thinking and playing me. i gotta go now cause all i wanna do is die. stop my breathing this heart beats raceing i say fuck this life and fuck you. but i really want you to see that i loved you. my friend was here for me. thats why im gonna pick up this gun, pull the trigger. i want this all to end i cant make it happen myself. my friend walked into my room saw my body laying ther not moving saw the gun burst into tears, now he cant breathe, he cant believe i cant believe all this has happened this doesnt make since, just like this song which the writer cant finish because its to hard, hes probably bursting into tears wishung and praying this will get better.... it aint good but thats what happened when i saw him his life was takeing away cause he couldnt handle it. heres another song if you're interested-listen to this voice trail off as you listen to this song.you keep playing your smile over and over again.im to dark to see, what was happening around me.i shoulda stopped to listen but i couldnt. so look where i got us. making us say heres to the past the uncommon change, the ode to faithfullness.screaming,heres to the pain of all i brought along to the both of us.see all the pictures of us being happy?i did just burn them in flame.im sick of you not careing and hiding behind clouds waiting for my death day to be here.can you see the blood running down my face for all the blood i have spelt for you?are you listening to me? im starting to sayheres to the past the uncommon change, the ode to faithfullness.screaming,heres to the pain of all i brought along to the both of us. can you see all the bull shit you have brought to my life? i cant stand here and take it.all this bloods running and i cant stop but watching it fall off.so heres to the past the uncommon change, the ode to faithfullness.screaming,heres to the pain of all i brought along to the both of us. we cant stay here anymore we have to move forget about everything and fuck the world. so scream to the hevens heres to our future for the best of our changes getting better....it sucks ass