cross me out

I say I'm not pretty. Not because I'm looking for attention or compliments, but because that's truly how I feel. I don't believe that I am pretty because I can see everything you don't. I see how my stomach looks when I'm standing in my bra. I see the face under the make up. I see every little flaw about myself, even if you can't. I see what I look like when i wake up in the morning, or when i walk out of the shower. I look in the mirror and ask myself  "if you saw me standing in front of you like this, you'd see what I've been saying." I'm not a beautiful person. Everything about me; I want to change; everything I see is the truth screaming "you're absolutely, atrociously, and incredibly hideous." Thanks, God, for making me look like this. Thanks for giving me the body and face that I hate to wake up to every morning. Those moments when i feel beautiful; I feel like I'm on top of the world. Though, someone always comes along and says something to knock me off my high. Why can't people accept the fact that I'm unattractive? Do they do it to make themselves feel more appealing and beautiful? Or, are they so insecure about their own looks that they have to impress people with the insults they throw at me? Why was I born like this?  I say I'm not pretty because I'd be lying if I said I was.