dan situation

yes, dan, i stalk your blog....

dan situation:

i like this dude named DANJUANMARTINEZ

he's a year younger than me, usually that means UNDATEABLE

he's different though

i think we have chemistry, but all the girls think that with him because he is what the scientists call:

A CHRONIC FLIRT

chronic flirt: flirts with any decent human being, female in his case, doesn't matter if she's pretty (e.g. veeka) or ugly (e.g. kirsty) he'll flirt with them all

well, i guess i fell for him

i don't know how to quite explain, but i'll try my best

i like him, he's cute, tall, fit, and has a heart crushing smile (yes, cheesey i know)

he makes me laugh, blush, and smile

legit: i smile everytime i see him

when he hugs me, i feel like i actually matter, and i'm not alone

he entertains me when i'm bored

he's usually goofy and immature, but there's this side of him that, idk, is really serious and sensitive

but he doesn't get that i'm shy i guess

yes, i'll be the first to admit it, i'm always awkward with a guy i actually like, it takes me a while to get comfortable, i can flirt with the best of them when it doesn't matter, but when things like that matter, i shut down and get stupid

i don't want a boyfriend, but dan wants a girlfriend

dan always manages to break my heart

i always love him, though

i don't want a serious relationship, God, i'm only in highschool

dan can't wrap his mind around that

i can't do the whole: i don't have to see you every day thing

i need to be able to see my bf at least once or twice a week

dan lives kind of far away, and we go to different schools

different schools=different drama

i don't think dan is EMOTIONALLY READY to handle me

i'm kind of protective

i'm depressed

i'm extremely good at argueing

i'm a bitch

sometimes i move too fast and regret it

i close up and won't talk to you for days

it's easy to upset me

i don't think dan would be able to handle me if i call him up in tears and covered in blood

i wouldn't want to put him through that




so dan, that's most of the situation with you, i had no idea you even read my blog anymore, i thought you didn't care. i know you don't love me like i love you, it's alright, though. as long as you're still around and talking to me, or even if you just popped up sometime in the future randomly, there will be a smile on my face.
daniel juan martinez, i love your name, i love you

i hope you understand me a little better now

-t