so idk but i have this weird feeling that the douche-face is dissing me
today was absolutely awful bc i see none of my friends except for before school and after school
i have to see patrick everywhere and get fucking panic attacks, i don't think he can tell though, i try to compose myself. my heart goes insane though, beating like crazy from the adrenaline from seeing him. i seriously hate having to go to the same school he goes to.
therapy isn't helping. it's hard to say everything outloud to a stranger. i don't want to get close to my parents or i would've already made the effort. therapy=waste
i had to sit by myself for lunch and study bc none of my friends were around, just the haters.
going to veeka's meet. <3 her. i'll be happy soon (i hope)
i wish i could see my friends, but we have no classes together. i can't just join a new clique bc they all form during frosh year (last year) i'm too shy to talk to the haters. i don't have a phone to talk to friends, i can't go on facebook, i don't trust people with secrets
i don't use twitter that much. it's just connected to my tumblr.
fuck you
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