hey everyone (which is NOT a lot, i can assure you) i'm sorry for not posting a lot. i haven't gotten around to getting hold of a computer. i kind of just "stole" my laptop from the very "secret" hiding place that my parents have put it. obviously, i couldn't give a shit.
my life is kind of in ruins at the moment. having drama with everyone and trying to keep myself from falling off the edge. i try so hard to please everyone. i try to leave everyone alone if i'm getting the vibe that they don't want me around. trying to put on a happy face even though every muscle in my body is screaming "NO!!" i honestly don't know what i'm doing anymore. i don't know why i'm here. i'm just wasting everybody's time. just try and prove me wrong.
i'm going to start another blog along with this one. it's going to be a series of letters to the same person.i'm only going to post when i'm on a computer, i may add pictures that remind me of him, lyrics, poems, and scan things onto it. anything goes. it's always easier to write when you have someone to write to. i'm so in love with him. i hate myself for having any hope left for him. i'm pretty sure he knows who he is. i won't give you the url for it, but you can find it on my blogger profile if you really want to read it. i don't even think the person i'm talking about even reads this blog anymore.
love and tears
tanya
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