does anyone understand? it's like no one is there for me. i'm here all alone practically drowning in my own tears. i've lost so many people in my life for such stupid things. i never provoke people, i stand up for myself. look what happens; i lose someone i wanted a future with. he doesn't tell people about me. all he does is want. wants things from me. he says he is saving himself for marriage...bullshit. everytime he says goodbye and i say it back, i know he will text back the next day, he likes me, i know it. he says he does. why can't he pray on some other moron, not me. i don't like being treated this way, i never asked for it. i cry as if someone has died...and maybe...maybe a part of me is dieing... so much of me is lost to my first love whom i'll always remember but want to forget about. he was my first for everything...the one guy i trusted with my life....my everything...we fought....but in the fights you could just see we loved each other the same way. don't get me wrong, i'm over him, beyond done but...i still like to think about the good times him and i shared. so all i'm asking is....someone....anyone who actually cares about a girl and doesn't treat her as a sexual object... find me... and treat me like the person you know i am.
thank you...
love
and plenty of tears
tatyana
I know exactly how fill. Ive been there and back. And belive me i can tell you about hell, as far as relation ships are concerned. Ill tell you this though,,youll be better from this experience and in a couple years youll barely remember him. Your probly better off now anyways. {saving him self for marrage} O_o he sounds like ah fool, i tell you what in a year or when ever, when his balls do finally drop, that whole saving him self is gonna fly out the window and hes gonna remember you and regreat letting you get away.
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